11.11.2014

有些人说亲人逝世前会有预兆

妈妈新配的眼镜无端端断了

妹妹早上从楼梯摔了下来

三个小时后

就接到外婆逝世的噩耗

望着您的容颜

心里不禁期许您在天堂快乐逍遥着

或下辈子投胎到一头好人家

过个比这辈子更舒适，更美满的日子

外婆，一路好走

我好累

想不开,就不想
得不到,就不要
难为自己,何必呢?

pre exam 6.1

This time, it feels different and i'm hoping writing will ease my pain and discomfort even for a little bit:

1. I never fall sick so close to exam.
2. I usually have a mild revision prior to final revision.
3. I dont feel good about it.
4. This is the final paper to attempt (HOPEFULLY).
5. I registered a new email with ACCA and being a very very superstitious individual when it comes to exam, i hope this little twist in tradition is not bringing disaster.
6. Even my parents are skeptical of me passing this time. 

little therapy

Apparently there are 5 stages of grief/loss that are experienced by people from all walks of life namely the Kübler-Ross model.

In our bereavement, we spend different lengths of time working through each step and express each stage with different levels of intensity. The five stages do not necessarily occur in any specific order. We often move between stages before achieving a more peaceful acceptance. 

1. Denial and Isolation
This is a temporary defence mechanism where we block out the words and hide from the facts that carry us through the first wave of pain.

2. Anger

As the masking effects of denial and isolation begin to wear, reality and its pain re-emerge. We are not ready. Rationally, we know the person is not to be blamed. Emotionally, however, we may resent the person for causing us pain or for leaving us. We feel guilty for being angry, and this makes us more angry.

3. Bargaining
The normal reaction to feelings of helplessness and vulnerability is often a need to regain control. "If only we had sought medical attention sooner…", "If only we got a second opinion from another doctor…", "If only we had tried to be a better person towards them…".

4. Depression
This phase may be eased by simple clarification and reassurance. We may need a bit of helpful cooperation and a few kind words. Sometimes all we really need is a hug.

5. Acceptance
Many of us are not afforded the luxury of time required to achieve this final stage of grief. But if you do, congratulations! You got over it =)

Coping with loss is a ultimately a deeply personal and singular experience — nobody can help you go through it more easily or understand all the emotions that you’re going through. But others can be there for you and help comfort you through this process. The best thing you can do is to allow yourself to feel the grief as it comes over you. Resisting it only will prolong the natural process of healing.

Reference: http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-5-stages-of-loss-and-grief/000617

some little acts that never fail to cheer me up

Best way to kick off Friday morning =)

hello new friend!

Amid people gradually move from Apple to Samsung, i'm joining the crowd too.

Thank you for the advance birthday gift <3

After the short bliss, so now it's all the setup and migration which gonna take ample time:

- Contacts --> done (:
- Whatsapp --> still figuring out
- SMS --> less critical
- Images --> in progress
- Music --> next in line

And button control changes that needs to be got used with (part and parcel of transition hmm).

That's what happened when you don't back up your data on regular basis (i basically performed none). Extremely 'indulged' in researching on whatsapp transfer so if anyone do have any solutions, pls i'll appreciate your kind lifting hand :))