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究竟长大是拥有更多自由做自己想做的事，
还是少了为所欲为的权利。

pre exam 3.7

i wonder since when i became a screwdriver.
so good at screwing up papers.
and i think im gradually immune to it.
goodbye dear first!

pre exam 3.6

cyy, can u just be a professional student? I dont wanna care wat ur real priorities are, but pls stop bringing ur personal emotions into ur studies.

k. i promise.

pre exam 3.5 pathetic

I wonder how many more pre-exam posts incoming =p
Hope everyone's doin well with revisions and exams.
Sorry if it bores u, sometimes u just lose focus without reason.
U ve had exams too, im sure u understand what it feels like.

Sigh. Oh well. Exams.
Test of memory, determination, knowledge and also emotions.
How i wish i could cry to release everything out.

pre exam 3.4

See what i still have with me  =)

pre exam 3.3

Oh god can everyone please stop asking me to sleep early.

A more practical thing that u can really do is,

to drag me up from bed or to 'guard' me thru the nite so that i dont fall asleep.
Pressurise me, motivate me, force me, push me.

Or if u r not used to being an antagonist,
 any words of encouragement or support simply warms me enough   =D

I promise k, I ll take good care of myself.

N i ll get back to a normal lifestyle, once exam finishes.
Am listening to yan jue's mini concert and sthing to share:

                                                  他：你想听我唱什么歌？

                                                  她：爱错。

                                                  他：不会，爱的就是你。

It's hazy and extremely hot back at home.

Take care everyone!

Think it's getting warmer bcuz everyone's keeping their air-conds on..

If only everybody can bear the heat a lil, and switch on their fans instead,

the overall environment will probably get cooler.  Love!

pre exam 3.2

Just finished consensus ad idem. 1 more day.

I know how ppl tend to wonder how would i blog at these times,

as it's one less distraction and everything,

but trust me, having ZERO distractions from work 24 hours a day is hell.

Few of u asked me of recent new songs btw.

I like 王心凌‘s 黏黏黏黏,

Typical cyndi, but it's very cheerful,

and it just reminds u of how beautiful life can be. Nites!

pre exam 3.1

UK is in deep sleep mode while Msia has reached midday.
I couldnt count if tis is the X-th time of 5am already.

The moon went to bed, and the sun has risen for his job.

Until then it's time for me to sleep.
Grab time! Good nite!

dear mummy, i definitely hv no courage to tell u these..

When i wasnt even 1, you carried me like a mother kangaroo for abt 9 months.
When i was 3, you tied different hairstyles for me so that i look like a little princess.
When i was 5, you caned me for bullying my new-born sis n keeping rice in my mouth.
When i was 6, you nodded when i wanted to learn piano which was a luxurious hobby.
When i was 7, you taught tis banana girl mandarin until she understood her teachers.
When i was 9, you hurriedly rush me to the clinic when i was stung by a bee.
When i was 12, you allowed me to choose my own school though u preferred convent.

When i was 13, you slipped a letter under my door when i locked myself in my room.
When i was 16, you drove me to school 630 in the morning from monday to friday.
When i was 17, you shopped all day juz to search for a pair of shoes for my performance.
When i was 18, you told me i shudnt drive out of anger cuz it's vry dangerous n worrying.

When i was 19, you supported me all the way thru when i was in the worst of my life.
When i was 20, you sent me off to uk to pave me a better future and life experience.
When i was 21, you told me no more 'pinky' stuffs and i hv to behave like a mature.
When i was 22, you hid from me tat granny's life at stake so that i can focus in my exams.

And now, im 23, but you are still doing everything you could as a mother, in fact, more n more everyday! I know i ve not done enough as a daughter. Im sorry for every bad that i've done and for every word that ached u. Thank you for everything that you've provided me with, showered me with, spoilt me with, forgiven me for and taught me about.
I Lv you mummy! ♥

Last but not least, also for all the mothers out there:

ps: Btw I've not been such a last minute b4:
Carnations delivery                 - TOO LATE
Handmade & handwritten card - TOO LATE
Parcel from UK                        - TOO LATE
Likely feasible solution: to borrow daddy's & sis' effort to buy my gift on behalf  =D

a message 10552km away from home

I tried to study today.
But it's so unproductive. It's simply boring and im unmotivated.
The journal on Sialkot and soccer ball is annoying me utterly.

Thanks to the critical thinking module. Im critically managing it.

I wanna sniff the smell of bah kut teh now.
I wanna lie down comfortably on my hs sofa now,
holding Astro's remote control and switching from channels to channels.
I wanna drive all the way on NKVE now,
Klang, Shah Alam, Subang, Petaling Jaya, Damansara...
I wish my piano's here so that i can take a breather occasionally, esp at these moments.


Lol just complaining and rambling a lil on my little everland.
I ll definitely finish off and get rid of that journal b4 i head to bed =)
Ohhhh but no more nightmares pls!!
I was driving the entire night in my dream and it was so SO tiring.
Anyway, good morning Malaysia! And......