endless

So i had another skype call fraught with tears, which made me think about how i came all the way overseas, and how the clutches can still stretch so far. i don't know. i guess it's the ties that bind, and you really can't run away from it. neither do i think i really want to, deep down inside. after all, heartstrings can't be cut that easily.

I always thought skype was invented to be a happy thing.
And that if there are tears involved, they are tears of joy.

Funny how I keep getting proven wrong;
Time and time again.

I'm tired of this.

the new record

For the first time this week, I actually have a straight record of zero days of cryins.. Tis is largely due to the reason that i ll be home soon. On a very happy note, im very glad to remind myself that it's just one more week to go.. :D

Another pivotal reason -- all my lovely friends. Thank you to everyone who cheered me up in their own little way these two weeks. That's very very sweet n kind of u.. Esp tat u either hv to stay awake late at nite o made the effort to wake up from ur dreams early in the morning to skype with pinkiecloud. Thank you very, very much.

After all these, i decided to reward myself giddily with a better n more luxurious meal. This is also in corporation with the 20% discount from xanana (esp if u study economics, u should be aware that tis a good deal that u shudnt have missed, esp when u perform calculations on currecy conversions)..

My supreme of salmon..


Stir fried ciabatta..


Burger special..


Actually we also had the very nice banoffee waffle as dessert.. One of the very famous desserts here.. It's a Belgian waffle topped with sliced banana, vanilla ice cream and drizzled with toffee sauce.. One of the best dessert i ve ever had. Sorry that i couldnt show u an image of it, i forgot to take a snap of it.. ): Sorry..

Honestly speaking, tis was my second meal in xanana ever since i came to warwick. I shud admit that im quite reluctant to spend on outside food. Jz bcuz pinkiecloud rather spend it on somewhere else n pinkiecloud thinks that her cookin is stil not too bad yet =P

Guess these pictures attribute to good eyecandy for my blog.. Wil take more (meaning hv to eat at outside more??) nx time..
Take care =)

supper-supper

Have been updatin n replyin to emails today. Think i ve gained weight now.. Duno.. Perhaps anyone could tell me if im more chubby n fat now?



Haha.. I think late-nite suppers are my soulmate now.. Chocolates, cookies, cereals, muffins, bread, candies, tidbits, fruits, yoghurt, wedges, fries etc etc... Have been happily enjoyin suppers almost every nite.. Tats y i gained weight i think.. But it's very pleasurable to have supper, esp when i was watching drama, sittin on the chair with my legs tugged in, it was like the best time for the day (other than skype).. But i should really stop eatin junk, sum day, for health purposes, n otherwise im going to be fattie yunyun :)

Thx to joanna who came over to hv dinner n chit-chat with me.. N brought me delicious muffins from BB's. Well, I hope my black pepper chicken was not too bad..

Was expecting snow today.. According the forecasts, strong winds from the north MIGHT bring snow.. Oh yeah, 'might', so it's not sthing wrong when in the end there was no snow.. Hopefully i ll have snow days again nx term..

Drawing close to the end of the weekend, the unproductive weekend i shud say.. But im glad at least im not cryin again tis time, im ramblin about little things but that brought me SUPER happiness.. I ve been refraining myself from talkin about the perils, frustrative, n emos..

Guess this more or less sums up tis week. Wil be steppin on the grounds of msia in two weeks time.. Oh I just cant wait for the day to come :D

a pot of warmth

Im sorry that tis would be a long post again, but a couple of things cheered me up these few days. First of all, my hat goes to crystal and wendy who made the effort to wake up early in the morning to chat with me. Was motivated a lot. N cryin reduced drastically. Thx gals, they meant a lot to me. But im sorry if i ve made ur day started with unhappiness to see a hampau cryin in the screen while having ur breakfasts..

Drama was good. Initially my heart was teared to pieces when i was informed that the website i used to stream dramas was shut down. Couldnt get any alternatives thou. Finally resorted to another blogspot n everything went off well. Managed to catch up with 'Moonlight Resonance' which was stuck half way. Im at epi 22 now.. I must say, drama really enlightened my life over here a lot. I rarely cry when i watch drama, but eversince buckets n buckets of tears ensued while watching 'Moonlight Resonance', seeing the family of 'joe bao' so happy n so close.. but me being away from daddy, mummy, and my two sisters whom i miss a lot a lot..

One of my fav is epi 14, where 'jo bao' disguised himself to cheer her daughter 'ah hing' up, singing the warm n fuzzy 'fen fen zhong sui you nei', one of my fav songs.. It made me tot of daddy who always tell us super funny bed time stories.. I watched the scene for at least 10 times ade.. But of course, dramas really helped to drive my sorrows away. Sometimes i was hesitatin whether to sacrifice one hour for drama, but it proves to be really worthwhile. At least after tat i can study better, have a better mood, n head to bed sweetly, grinning in glee.. ^-^

Also, caught a glimpse of klang wonderland from the pics on the online paper. This is the place that i love n miss very very much.. My homeland =)Please dun misunderstood that klang is so dirty o doesnt look like a city. It is indeed a very lively n happy city, jz that due to construction that had gone on for more than a year, traffic is gettin worse n worst.. But rainbow after rain, im sure klang wil turn to an even beautiful place after all these upgrades.. Nevertheless, im Definitely proud to be klangites =P


So much of feelins came up when i saw tis pic. This is the road i used to drive on almost everyday. How much i wish tat im jamming there with the other motorists now..


Got the fantastic idea of motivation from wendy, i wrote about ten messages n hung them around my room.. In mandarin though.. SO that not everyone, esp the cleaners can read them?? Keke.. But the genuine reason underlyin shud be i love expressin myself in mandarin more, it's very romantic n expressive to me. Half way thru writin i did cry, but now i keep on reminding myself to be strong n tough.. TO be aware that im very blessed indeed as i can cum to uk, n oso go home so often..

Another cheerup: My first taste of hotpot in uk. Blindly joined the china in focus for a hotpot dinner in coventry yesterday. Tell u wat, i expected lots of chinese to join the event, yet it ended with all the caucasians.. N the best part is, they could speak mandarin.. Omg.. I was utterly stunned n impressed.. Their mandarin were fluent n they could share stories bout themselves in mandarin! N they loved the Chinese culture. Im so glad. So for the whole night, we converse in mandarin n it was really cool..

However, the hotpot wasnt really nice though.. These pictures shall tel u the stories..

That's the 'pot', made up of two soups, one is herbal soup, n another is a spicy soup, but it seems its just some chilly oil.. Very different from the one we usually have in msia..


N when they add the soup, they add purely hot water instead of the real soup like in msia.. So the soup actually ended up getting tasteless-er and tasteless-er..


Secondly, the 'ingredients' to be put into the hotpot. There were mussles, fishballs, sausages, seaweeds, 'dong fen', 'dou gan' etc.. But stil different from ours..



Sum prawns, n beef.. Din eat much prawns thou, cuz i was thinkin that it's quite troublesome n i dun hv the magic skills of peeling of the prawn skins with the chopsticks..


The sauces available.. Tis was the onli one i really enjoyed, without them, the soup was almost tasteless..


The hotpot din end up tasty nor delicious anyway. It was quite bad actually, to me. Wat we have in msia is definitely a lot better i would say. It's a buffet hotpot, so there was actually a free flow of food n drinks. So i ate a lot of 'dong fun' and sausages through out as onli them seemed to be of my taste.. Each country has their own taste preference i guess..


Despite the somehow rather tasteless hotpot (actually im pretty regret tat i shud jz order a simple chinese dish instead), but it was good experience though.. N got to know a lot of new frens, who can speak mandarin.. This is julie, n spain, n her mandarin was the best amongst all.. A very friendly n jovial lady..She has a twin sister who went along tat nite too..


Me n shin li..


That's ding, from china, doing acc n finance too..Blurred by the steam.. hehe..


The atmosphere of the restaurant is pretty well.. With all the chinese paintings n decorative styles.. N the tv was showing a show of 'A date with Lu Yu' from the phoenix channel..


As u can see, everythin was quite 'chinese-styled'..


It was very kind of the driver of the restaurant to send us back (fee shall be included in our meal already), n he stopped me right in front of my flat. So i ve successfully prevented from walking back alone. N on the way, we heard the song 'tong hua' by Micheal Guang Liang. Few of us (me at least) were singing out along, n yeah.. Feelin very warm n sweet tat nite. Reached comfie heronbank at around 11. But im was an impulsive and wonderful nite =P

Announcement:

Have really nthing much to update tis week. It was really crying, crying n crying.

I shud annouce crying as part n parcel of my life in uk. It has been sthing that i ll definitely do everyday. Sthing that i ll do very much. Omg, i dun even wash my hair everyday...

This announcement wasnt to indicate tat im very negative. Jz tat i ve been contemplatin very seriously, n i jz wont force myself to suppress my homesicknesses as i did. I ll jz let it bursts whenever it likes, 'let it be, let it be...', here sounds the song. I ll happily accept it whenever it comes n i noe time wil help me to send it off one day.

I feel like i'm turning dull from the lack of the great outdoors. Probably, probably, i ll head to london to meet up with amanda n jl nx week.

N thank you for all the support n encouragement. They meant a lot to me. I ve been reading them few times a day. I noe everyone out there wants yunyun to be cheerful n 'siao siao' again.. I ll learn to be strong..

Oh ya, Joy got straight A's for her upsr n was chosen as the model student for her batch. Im so glad.. N jane is going on full power for her spm now. Wishin jane all the best n congrats to joy.



I miss my two lovely sisters..

s.t.o.p

Okay, i want today's post to be a happy one. Im tired of crying to the screen. My eyes r gettin smaller n smaller, n my nose r getting redder and redder.

Apart from going lectures, these few days were entirely spent indoors. The extremely cold weather r shunning me away from steppin outdoors. I started to appreciate the warmth that little sunshine brings. It is very uncomfortable here n im finding it very difficult to survive in this weather. Of course, wasnt being very cheerful due to sickness, stressful workload n also homesickness.

Although im sad when pizza chow scolded me, but he was right thou. He reminded me that the worst experience i ve ever had shud be during my ns, though it's just for one month. Where i cant even skype with my family, where mobile phones r onli available for use during weekends, where there's no entertainment at all...... I ve overcomed the worst one, n now, im few times enjoyable n comfortable than when i was in ns, y shud i be so afraid..

These few days i ve been seriously thinking that i want to quit, but these 5 words of "I want to go home" was swallowed times after times whenever i felt like saying it. I noe i cant be so pampered anymore. N tis time dad n mum wont spoilt their daughter for the second time.

I guess one of the biggest challenges of coming overseas is to learn how to deal with all the pressures of living and studying alone. It's not as easy as it sounds. THere is no more kakak. You've got to learn how to take care of yourself properly, eat properly, sleep properly, manage ur time properly, used of being alone n lonely, take your medication on time if u r sick. No one is there to guide u, to advise u, to remind u or even to nag u.. Everything is 'DIY'.

But I suppose we all learn.



I want u all to be happy to see hampau yunyun regain happiness bit by bit. Im getting better, even the flu is gradually leaving me alone. Im sorry to lin that i couldnt get u pictures of nott. But i might stil be able to 'smuggle' into the singaporeans group n head to nott tis sat. I noe u r eagerly looking forward to hear about Nottingham and see the pretty pictures. I ll try my best.. :D

Goodbye.