aspirations

A msn conversation with yong tonight made me realise that im losing the momentum that saw me through before i came up warwick. Absolutely absent from high expectations and ambitious dreams.. Guilt is growing intensely in my body when i see everyone puttin their hard (extremely hard) toils in pursuing their studies upon achieving their desired ambitions.

There's no drive or motivation to keep going. Have been just thinkin for time to pass, and time to go home to arrive. Waiting for lectures to end, exams to pass (jz to pass..).. I wonder what's wrong with me..

Initially i would say tat it appeared to be a positive thing, where i can jz enjoy my learning process n uni life here. No pressure to do well, no more burning of midnight's oil, no more cryins at nite while tryin to memorize the lines in the textbooks during exam period..

But in reality, it's not. It's not.

It's time to have a good talk to myself n find out the root of the problem now. I know, i know, the study culture is different here. Jz try to pick up with it asap n make the best out of it.. U would definitely like to be a successful career lady, wouldnt u?


Got to keep reminding myself that excellence was one of the goals i set out to achieve by going overseas to study. This is a golden opportunity given to me n i shud grab it tightly..

Stop procrastinatin my dear. Stay focus and dont walk off the track..

devil: But it's last week for the term already =(

angel: But dont u forget that u r having a mcq exam tis week???!! Start working now!!

devil: But it's just mcq, n consists of onli 20 questions..

angel: It's stil an exam, n it's counted towards ur module marks..

devil: Yes i know. But it's just 15%..

angel: Dont u want the 15%?? Fine, if u dont want it, just carry on procrastinatin, dreaming n wanderin around..

devil:(speechless)

The angel won n pinkiecloud is taking out her lecture notes..