Announcement:

Have really nthing much to update tis week. It was really crying, crying n crying.

I shud annouce crying as part n parcel of my life in uk. It has been sthing that i ll definitely do everyday. Sthing that i ll do very much. Omg, i dun even wash my hair everyday...

This announcement wasnt to indicate tat im very negative. Jz tat i ve been contemplatin very seriously, n i jz wont force myself to suppress my homesicknesses as i did. I ll jz let it bursts whenever it likes, 'let it be, let it be...', here sounds the song. I ll happily accept it whenever it comes n i noe time wil help me to send it off one day.

I feel like i'm turning dull from the lack of the great outdoors. Probably, probably, i ll head to london to meet up with amanda n jl nx week.

N thank you for all the support n encouragement. They meant a lot to me. I ve been reading them few times a day. I noe everyone out there wants yunyun to be cheerful n 'siao siao' again.. I ll learn to be strong..

Oh ya, Joy got straight A's for her upsr n was chosen as the model student for her batch. Im so glad.. N jane is going on full power for her spm now. Wishin jane all the best n congrats to joy.



I miss my two lovely sisters..

s.t.o.p

Okay, i want today's post to be a happy one. Im tired of crying to the screen. My eyes r gettin smaller n smaller, n my nose r getting redder and redder.

Apart from going lectures, these few days were entirely spent indoors. The extremely cold weather r shunning me away from steppin outdoors. I started to appreciate the warmth that little sunshine brings. It is very uncomfortable here n im finding it very difficult to survive in this weather. Of course, wasnt being very cheerful due to sickness, stressful workload n also homesickness.

Although im sad when pizza chow scolded me, but he was right thou. He reminded me that the worst experience i ve ever had shud be during my ns, though it's just for one month. Where i cant even skype with my family, where mobile phones r onli available for use during weekends, where there's no entertainment at all...... I ve overcomed the worst one, n now, im few times enjoyable n comfortable than when i was in ns, y shud i be so afraid..

These few days i ve been seriously thinking that i want to quit, but these 5 words of "I want to go home" was swallowed times after times whenever i felt like saying it. I noe i cant be so pampered anymore. N tis time dad n mum wont spoilt their daughter for the second time.

I guess one of the biggest challenges of coming overseas is to learn how to deal with all the pressures of living and studying alone. It's not as easy as it sounds. THere is no more kakak. You've got to learn how to take care of yourself properly, eat properly, sleep properly, manage ur time properly, used of being alone n lonely, take your medication on time if u r sick. No one is there to guide u, to advise u, to remind u or even to nag u.. Everything is 'DIY'.

But I suppose we all learn.



I want u all to be happy to see hampau yunyun regain happiness bit by bit. Im getting better, even the flu is gradually leaving me alone. Im sorry to lin that i couldnt get u pictures of nott. But i might stil be able to 'smuggle' into the singaporeans group n head to nott tis sat. I noe u r eagerly looking forward to hear about Nottingham and see the pretty pictures. I ll try my best.. :D

Goodbye.

only lonely

It's cryin day today. Im crying most of the time. Starting from i went to bed last nite, i cried, when i woke up, i cried, when i walked my way to lecture, when i had my lecture, when i walked my way back to lecture, when i cooked my lunch, when i chatted on phone, when i skype-d with jane, when i went for seminar, when i cooked my dinner, eating my fried mihun, when i washed my dishes, when i was taking shower, when i was doing my assignments, when i was arranging my clothes in my wardrobe. I never fail to cry today. I guess i ll be blind very soon.

I duno y. I shall push the blame to my PMS. Plus the very very very weather tat made me freaking cold.

Next, good if u noe mandarin, im bringin u tis song for sharing. It's jolin's 'yi ge ren'.. Yea correct, wat can one person do?



03.一个人
作曲:黄韵仁 作词:阿管

从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多尝几口想念
已经没有什么人 会埋怨

一个人 到底应该选右边或左边 (Although my bed is small..
两个人 每一次争吵都值得纪念 and i always sleep alone..)
一个人 偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人 我重新适应一切不方便 (This is 100% accurate!!)
两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
一个人 关灯看见记忆的横切面 (I opened the light, n my diary is my blog)
没有光线 过去那些情节 更明显

晴天 阴天 今天又是星期天 (Sorry, today is monday ya..)
唯一的打算是 心更乱一些 (But all the following fits me..)
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门 没差别


I noe i bore u if i jz 'pap' a video o lyrics jz like tat.. Hence hope this little bit could cheer u up, or me at least. Stay tuned!

emos and downs

Making sick is making my mood worse. I jz feel so unhappy today. I dont know y.

Jane has been accompanyin me til 2am of her time these two days. Im so touched. But once she said that she's heading to bed, i felt so reluctant. But i noe i cant be selfish to make her stay til late nite, esp when she's having her spm on tues.

K then, thx to the cold compression, fever has slipped away but flu is here to come. I couldnt hv a nice sleep last nite due to my 'stucked' nose.. Forced to breathe with my mouth when my throat was very dry too. It was terrible.

Dad n mum were 'beggin' me to approach the doctor on mon. But i dun feel like going. Other than bcuz it's troublesome, also bcuz i quite enjoy being sick. Im not going to tel u why, shall u guess?



Lectures wil begin tmr again. It's going to be week 7. ANother 3 more weeks for the day for home. I jz cant wait for the day to come. Til now, I havent like 100% like this place, although the trees r pretty, the roads r clean, the ppl r helpful, the gardens r green, n oso, my cosy little room. Pinkiecloud's sunshine n spirit r not working here. I just feel like waitin for every single day to pass.

I dont think anyone else who went overseas regretted izit.. But im kind of. To me, i really think that family plays the most pivotal part in my life.

I think im jz crappin. Despite my flu n headache. Dun worry bout me. I noe i shud stop. Hopefully the rain is going n the sun n clouds r here to cheer me up again.

high temperature

Haha. wat a funny title for tonite's post. N even funny when i can sit here n blog whilst having fever. Im sick! Just had my first porridge in uk. =(

A million thank you to royce for taking care of me today. She lent me her thermometer, then onli i realised that my temperature was 38.8C! Is it considered very severe, i dun know, but definitely im feeling very uncomfortable now. I noe i noe, i shud have gone to rest, but i just dun feel like resting yet, i wan2 watch drama. Oh dear..

Besides that, i hv terrible cough n itchy throat. Dehydration probably? ROyce has been 'monitoring' my meals n my rest. I muz really really thank her. She has been giving me a lot of lifting hand since i came here. I feel so lucky to hv her staying nx to me.

Ya, so i wont be able to attend Nott Games tmr, wont be able to enjoy lots of lots of Msian delights that i miss a lot, wont be able to grab a picture of Nott Campus, wont be able to travel.. My opportunity cost is extremely big for being sick.

Actually i dont know how did i get sick. As i mentioned yesterday, it was quite out of sudden. Dad n mum were very worried too. Being sick at ur non-country is really painful rite, how much i wish that my mum is here to take care of me now.

Happpyy Halloweeen

Well, as the title suggests, i had my first halloween in uk on tues nite. It was proudly presented by our MSA (Malaysian Students Assocation). Initially, there r sum circumstances where we had to amend our plans at the eleventh hour bcuz it seems all the materials posted up must be fire resistant o fire proof. Moreover u cannot block all the entrances n fire exits. Of course it's perceptible tat these r for safety reasons. But luckily everything turned out quite well in the end.

Tat's michelle.. Hehe.. La la la la la.. Im not scared =P

It was a night of chills and screams and drinks and partying, supposedly, but I spent most of my time tottering around. ANyway, i didn go thru the 'ghost tunnel', as u noe, i ll definitely be horrified n make myself ashamed.. Esp when i have to walk back to my little heronbank at nite.. So i was there having a good good time watching ppl being scared..

Royce n me again..

The future lawyers (except me)..

The 'ghosts'..

Im sorry i dun hv time to upload massive photos here. But most of the guests, i would say, really took their time to dress up for the event. U can see a large spectrum of images everywhere. I shall get a costume for halloween nx time..

Okay, right now im happily sittin here bloggin. Where else i shud be studyin o completing my assignments at least. Nvm, i love bloggin bcuz it gives me time n space to 'communicate' with myself, recall my experiences n at least, hv a breather for myself.

Im sick le.. Jz started coughin n lost my voice without warning today. Tat's very bad. How could i skype without my high-pitched chickie voice. In other words, i shud even beware of my meals for these few days. I dowan it to deteriote n worsen my mood. Being sick without comfort n care of home is very very very very sorrowful..

N i have a confession to make tonite. Im feeling extremely guilty for 'fishing' during lectures. I tried to control n make myself awake but my eyes were really droppin.. THey just dont listen to me. Speaking bout this, im not certain if im pickin up with my studies now. Esp for political n philosophical modules, im kinda strugglin. Everythin is so abstract n i noe im seriously lack of general knowledge. I dun even noe where Africa, Greece, Germany etc etc r located in. N seminar readings has been giving me a huge headache bcuz i cant understand them. I went thru sentence by sentence, word by word, n try to explain it to myself. But.. the sentences jz dun make sense! N tat's y i cant participate actively n indulge myself in the debates o discussions as i myself r unsure of what am i reading. It's pretty sad. Can anyone help me plz?

Okay, it's time to 'pen off' now. Hv a nice day =)