Learning to stand on my own feet..

I really shud stop tearing up everytime i skype with my family. Esp once my sister asked n told me like: "Jieh jieh, i miss u, Do u miss us?", "Would u prefer msia o uk?", "Do u like uk?" etc etc. These r very sensitive questions that will make me burst off once i listened. Now I think they r getting quite worried. They did ask me if i want to go home, which i don't, really. Cause i know that as long as i can overcome this phase, i ll be very fine. Life is really fun n interesting here, n warwick provides such a good studying environment, however being independent has its price. Like cooking and laundry. Simple day-to-day things that u dun bother of or take for granted at home suddenly become such a big issue here.

Another problem is time. Previously punctuality doesnt seem to be a problem to me. But now, i ve been rushing all the time though i ve been like going out so much earlier than i shud (and giving time allowance to search for lecture rooms) . For instance, when i was on my way, i suddenly became uncertain if i locked my door, so i ll walked back to my room n ensure that it's locked. It seems im always rushing for lectures n ended up extremely exhausted when i reached the lecture hall n couldnt pay full concentration to the speaker cuz im energy-less. I felt very bad for this.

It's quite sad n miserable that my room is in a terrible mess. Clothes were drapped all over my bed, my study table, my wardrobe, my bathroom, my chairs n even floors.. I tried to clean it whenever i can, coz i really cant stand living in such a untidy room, but everyday is like so busy n im forced to jz put down my things at anywhere i stop. THat's life without a 'kakak'.. Just before this, i managed to arrange my shoes nicely on my 'self-created' shoe rack. But i doubt that tis arrangement can last til the day after tomorrow.. Bless me.

Food has been quite depressing too. Though im not a very 'rice' individual, yet i jz couldnt get use without rice o noodles. Really, all the pastas, breads and pizzas r killing me throughout the week. Other than bcuz of my poor cooking skills (or i shud say zero, since i dun even noe how to fry an egg! But i dun eat eggs, i hate eggs most of the time), another reason that the dishes seemed to span several meals n were repeated several times. Your groceries take ages to finish that u're stuck with eating the same thing again n again. To make things worse, things were sold in bulks. FOr example, a packet of potatoes consists of more than 10, how long would it take to finish?? :(

But well as they say, fruits take time to bear. I belief there wil be a good harvest awaiting for me ahead. All i shud do is to be strong, brave, patient and wait.. N all these experience are going to mould me into a better person, a better pinkiecloud.. =P